No Warnings about Love

Today, it's the first time I heard him say thank you.
Not really heard, but rather saw, 'cause we were having a chat.
A sincere one indeed, one that I've felt with my heart.
My heart flutters, my stomach filled with butterflies.
But I remember why, I'm trying to forget him.
Because I've earned myself another broken heart.
I feel like a stalker, always reading his blog.
And everytime I see love quotes,
I felt my heart drop.
Either because it's so sweet that it makes me smile,
Or because I know that it's for someone else, but I imagine it to be mine.
I kept on pushing and pushing ,
Until I felt my heart break.
And through these words I say,
You can feel what I feel.
You may say I'm bitter,
But that's how it is.
These words I say are meant for him,
But I know he'll never read it.
I want to declare my love for him,
But it would be inappropriate,
And especially heartbreaking.
But I still want to do this,
Hoping he also loves me.
But deep inside my heart
Is that never-ending pain of love for him.
I think I never loved a guy like this.
Experienced it before but ain't like this.
And now I will say,
Loving him is so hard,
No one ever warned me about this,
But then I realized,
I was the one who got myself into this.
And someday I hope,
You'll be my one and only.
But I hate hoping and waiting for someone.
Because you'll never know if it will be worth it.
There's no turning back now.
But looking forward,
I know I can move on,
If we're not meant to be.
Because God knows it.